I Wish It Wasn’t So Easy For Me to Lose It


Arghh!

It has  been nearly two months since I last blogged. I don’t really have a good reason for staying away so long. I just sort of took a break from everything and did absolutely nothing. I think maybe it’s a case of burn out. Everything  became too much. I have this blog, multiple social networking pages, and am attempting to  write a second novel. Add a hectic everyday life and there you have it, burn out. My mind is nothing but mush. I’ve also embarked on a very unsuccessful weight loss journey. I have been working my ass off with no results. So I’m frustrated, at the moment, to say the least. I also started a new blog to chronicle my journey to Wrestlemania, the Superbowl of World Wrestling Entertainment. It’s a gift to myself for making it to my 4oth birthday next year.

I feel like I’m busy, busy, busy, but getting nowhere. I feel like I’m in a rut. Not much is going on with my book and writing in general. Very few seem to be interested and it feels like all my hard-work was for nothing.  Yeah, I feel that I accomplished something, so that’s a tiny success in itself. I suppose I should look at the glass as half full. It’s been a little hard as of late.

I watch people who are decent struggle to make good things happen for themselves. While I see those who treat people like shit, get ahead in life. New houses, new cars, new lovers etc. It just doesn’t seem to make sense to me right now. So many of my friends are struggling and out of work, while some others just sit on their asses living off the backs of their fellow humans. Why is this okay? Liars, cheats and low-down dirty people making it big. There must be something I’m missing. Sure the grass is not always greener, but damn it sure feels like it. I still question when my grass is going to be greener. I, by no means, am at rock-bottom, but I sure would like to be in a better place. Better than those who go after things in an under-handed way. That’s all.

So here I am, once again, trying to find that positive spirit. I wish it wasn’t so easy for me to lose it.

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4 responses to “I Wish It Wasn’t So Easy For Me to Lose It

  • Harnew

    You’re actually aren’t missing it now. You just stated how you can become “big.” And if you don’t want to do that, might as well get use to the way things are now.If what you’ve been doing isn’t working, experiment with the reverse.

  • Harnew

    Yeah especially if you’re in your 40’s and still haven’t figured this out. Sad, indeed.

    • May Torres

      Luckily I’m not in my 40’s yet! I’m grateful to you for coming onto my blog to offer yourself up as an example of what I’m writing about. You’re a true sport for doing that. Not many people would go out of their way to do something so nice for a complete stranger. I do hope you continue to give meaning to my words in this post. Your efforts are so greatly appreciated.

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